hmm,. i really dont know what to say,. i dont know how i could just write and write afn it all sound good,. now i cant find anything to write,. hmmm,. it seems all my friends are moving on,. without me,. i feel so,. so,....i really dont know what i feel right now,..lately,. i feel i ahve been ditching everyone,. ok,. i feel like i have been ditching viki,..this saturday,. i was going to try to go to Bitoz,. i ended up going dirt bike riding with my mom's friends,. again,. the last 2 times before this i told her i would try,.. i went dirt bike riding with mike and Erika the first time, .the second time my parent's said no,. and i still felt it was utterly all my fault,. adn then this weekend,. i really am hating myself right now,. adn then,. this guy ,.he likes me,. and he said hes liking me more and more everytime we talk,. and i dont know ,.i like him,. i think i like him,. i dont even know,..im afriad i am gonig to lead him on,. adn then,. once he asks me,. i will shut him down,. jstu like i did to Joe,. which i am really regretting now,. Joe is such am awesomr person,. i dont know how i could have hurt him the way i did,..and to top it off,. i have been in such a bad mood the last two weeks,. i have found myself getting in fights with my mom almost everyday,. and it really sucks,. i dont know wats wrong with me,. i have been gettin mad so very easily lately,... i amlost feel that i need anger management,. but then again,. i dont know how i of all people could take that class,..when i get mad at peoepl ,.i dont say anything,. cuz if i yelled at them,. i would feel terrible,. so i dont,. i keep everything inside,. and i guess its just starting to show,. and i hate it,. i have so much anger built up inside me,..and when my mom asks me why i am so mad,. i dont even know what to say,. becasue there has been soo,. soo many things that have made me this way,. i dont even know where to start, .let alone remember really what makes me mad in the first place,. and everyoner just thinks that i am just keepin it all to myself and i dont want to open up,. when the true problem is that i dont know wat my problem is and if i dont know my problems,. how i am supposed to open up?... none of this makes sense,.

ugh,. on a different subject,..i have really been stressing over my trip to Washington D.C.,. I dont know wat i am gonig to do,. i have to fly across the u.s. all alone!!!,.. i have never been alone before,. and it is my biggest fear,. i can already see me breaking down at the check in,..i seriuosly dont know what to do,. i am already feel Anxious,. nervous,. and alone,. adn i havent even packed my bag yet,. and i leave in less then a month,. im so scared,. but in thr end, .this is going t ohelp me,. for the good,. so i must only think about that,. ok well,. this is quite long,.so i am going now,..much love

                  ~*Love Sick Girl*~

hey hey guy,..last night was ALOT of fun,...im not ganna g ointo details becuz yall might think im a witch or crazy or sumthun lie kthat lol,. .but anywho,...yeah my friend Hailey had her borthday party yesterday cuz her birthday is today((HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAILEY)),.anywho ,.her sisters and the rest of her family were so funny,..yeah,...she has a sauna in her room!!!!<. god that is sooo kool,..yeah,. .man i missed my viki like crazy the las couple of days,.i havent talked to her in forever!!!!!! I LOVE YOU VIKI!!!,...yeah,...man some spanish guy added me to his thing cuz he liked my eyes,..and half the time he dint know wat i was talkin about,.i said sumthun was gay ,..and he diint know wat i meant wen i said it was gay,.lol,. but it was funny,...anyways,...yeah the swellin of my lip went down which is good,.it looked like i talked back to my ma,..lol,.everyone keeps tellin me im even more sexy now,..lol,.god there such good liars,..anywho,..well its like 11 and i still have t oget u ptomrow and do homework,.so i will talk to u kool kids later

hey guys ,..yeah ,.today was kool,. we all got u pat 9 and went out to breakfast,.then i went and got my lip peirce,d. my sis video taped the whole thing,.pretty funny,..anywho,.thne we  went to the mall ,..and i was being stared at by a bunch of old people,..((sigh)),.but was can you do!?!,..yeah, ..wen i got home i went ot burger king and the ski hill with my friends greg and eric,. yeah i wrestled greg and i totally won!!!,..lol, .yeah, .thne my ex boyfriend called me..(( my one and only guy that i ever loved)),.well anyways, .wer tlaked for liek 30 minutes,..thnen he had t ogo but he got messenger so we wre tlakni earlier ,.but hes off right now,.anyways,.well imma go now, .so ill tlak to u kool kids later,..